I think the world is always speaking to us. Sometimes we are open to hear the messages and other times, the wisdom of the world around us passes us by. When we are too busy focusing on the moment we are in and in survival mode, we aren't as open to receive the messages that are all around us.
After a quiet Sunday of trying to regain my perspective and turning it into a day of wondering "What in the world am I going to do next?" and trying my best not to panic, I woke up to a Monday full of words, wisdom and connections to shift my focus.
The first words that found their way to me was my daily email from Project Happiness.com: "You can't do anything about the length of your life. But you can do something about its width and depth. Fully immerse yourself in your present life experience."
I was reminded that I am doing the right thing. I needed to change my career path because all I could think of before I gave notice that I was closing my daycare doors was "How much longer do I have to do this? I can't do this for the rest of my life" and the only relief I could see was a shortened life expectancy. You know you are in the wrong job when you think you would rather die young, than carry on as you have been. Danger! Danger! Danger!
No matter where things go from here, I do know that where I am is better than where I was. I am living life in the moment and it is a much better place than looking too far ahead or focused on where I have been. One step in a forward direction will take me closer to where I am going. I just don't know where I am headed quite yet.
Then this message from COURAGEworks.com found its way to me: "We are born makers. We move what we're learning from our heads to our hearts through our hands."
After spending too much time focusing on jobs I didn't feel qualified for, I continued to dream of finding a way to continue working for myself. I have ideas. I am not certain if they are marketable or if I can sustain myself financially on them, but I have ideas. Where there is a spark, there is hope. If I do the right things for the right reasons, I will have the passion behind my actions to ignite that spark. I think.
Then I made a phone call to the student loan office to talk to them about my debt, my future, my ability to repay and wanting to ensure I made the right moves, so my actions of today don't negatively affect my future.
The person on the other end of the phone wore angel's wings. Of that, I am quite certain. These are a few of the things she told me. "Now is the time to return to school! Find out what grants your province offers for women entrepreneurs. Follow what you feel passionate about and you will be great at it!"
Here I was, talking to a person who could just as easily have said, "Get a job. Get any job! You must repay this student loan or your future could be jeopardized." Instead, she reiterated what has been resonating deep within me. "Don't go where you feel you have to go. Follow your passion. It will take you where you need to go."
When you are open to new thoughts and ideas, they find their way to you. The positive messages of the world are always there and trying to find their way into your world, your thinking and your subconscious mind. I love when the world around me makes me feel safe enough to open myself and my thinking to allow what I need to hear into my world. If you listen, it will come.